Requiem

For Sharon Christa McAuliffe

 

 

 

 

some say that you

and the Challenger crew

came to a tragic end

but when i recount the story

of your star-crossed flight

when I describe the circumstance

surrounding your death

i will do so in the same breath

i use to tell about a comic

who died at the height of his career

on stage cracking a joke

-   the audience roaring

 

and so dear teacher

the tears are not for you

but for an assembly

of cheering students

there to wish you bon voyage

it was Times Square New Year’s Eve

until the explosive arrival

of childhood’s end

the premature loss of innocence

caught

wearing a birthday party hat

clutching a tin kazu

no dear teacher

the tears are not for you

 

the grief i feel

is for the other finalists

the nine who missed the boat

one minute wrestling with envy

the next flooded with relief

countervailing emotions separated only

by a startling puff of smoke

the castaways drenched with guilt

at what they felt

when the call came

and they were granted

a last-minute reprieve

i grieve for them dear teacher

not for you

 

but most of all i’m angry

at myself for being fascinated

by the telescopic view

of your forlorn family

huddled on the dock

waving goodbye to the Titanic

and angrier still that i would sit

watching grainy pictures

shot from ambush

of small children

getting in and out of limousines

for this rude intrusion

i am truly sorry

but not for you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

dear teacher

how can I be anything

but overjoyed

for someone

destined to spend eternity

aboard a great plumed ship

steaming out

across a bay of cobalt blue

you

at the rail

dreaming

forever leaning toward Orion